Just Another Bend In Journey of Life
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I'm backWell after a fairly long weekend we got back late Sunday evening. I guess the weekend went by kind of quick, it was the good-bye with S that I was dreading. I really don't know what to do without her. I'm used to being a mom. In fact, I don't think I know any other way anymore. She's my sidekick. I'm used to having her there, getting her up in the mornings, brushing her long dark hair, feeding her, arguing over what outfit she's going to wear, picking her up and spending the evenings with her. Now my evenings are free to do whatever I please, but I find myself kind of lost, like I'm really not sure what I should do. Granted that I haven't exactly sat at home. I have plenty of little kids surrounding me to keep my occupied and help my "kid fix" when I need one. I helped BT's neice yesterday go on the potty twice and remembered back to when S was potty training and how proud they are of themselves. It was cute, she didn't want Mommy or Daddy to take her, she wanted me. I had to smile and chuckle to myself a little bit. Still doens't make me want another one of my own. I'm content on borrowing others! :) Like I explained to someone the other day, if I could skip the morning sickness and the last month and a half and give birth to a 3 year old (not in the literal sense-- OUCH!) I'd do it. I'm just not ready to haul diaper bags and all that crap all over the place again. S is so easy now. She can feed herself, tell me what she wants, dress herself. I mean, how great! The thought of getting fat and having another baby just makes me shiver. And I do know that I'd get along just fine. It's just that I'm very content with my life right now. Am I really willing to start over one day? I guess time will tell. For now however, I'm very happy borrowing other people's kids and then giving them back!!! :)
Sunday night I'd decided that I'd go into work for a little while on Monday to make sure I had all of my stuff done since it was our billing cut off. At 204am my phone rings, I see the name on the caller id so I answer thinking something is wrong. "Hello?", which was recieved with "Do you have any breath mints?" (toothpaste, whatever it was. It was 2am and I was groggy to begin with, "WHAT" I say extremely preturbed, again I hear "Do you have any breath mints? (giggle giggle giggle)", now I'm pissed "Who is this?" "Do you have any breath mints?" I finally hung up. Pissed right off that these kids are calling me on a Sunday night at 2am. Had it been a Friday or Sat, fine. But I knew I was getting up to go into work early. Ugh! So I get to work yesterday and call up a friend of mine that I used to work with that has the same last name that showed up on my caller id and ask if this woman is her sister in law. Yep. The 11 year old girls were having a sleep-over in a tent in the back yard and they'd gone to her house to ask if he daughter wanted to stay with them. Thank God she didn't! Now I did laugh about this yesterday. I admit that it was funny and ALL of us have made a prank call. And I have to give them credit, at least it was tasteful and not perverted, and they stayed right on track with "do you have breath mints?", instead of trying to have a conversation with me which would have just pissed me off even more at the time! Back when we did it, there was no caller id. At least not in this neck of the woods (hell, I still remember when my Aunt had a party line!!!). I don't ever remember calling people at 2am. It may have been 10pm but never that late/early in the morning. Anyway, next thing I know I'm at work and I get a phone call. "Hello." "Hi, this is ____, I'm really sorry for calling you last night". (Trying not to laugh) I told her that it was actually funny today but last night when I had to get up for work today, it was not funny at all. Complete silence on the line...... "Well thank you for calling and apoligizing, I really do appreciate it". "You're welcome". So I called my ex co-worker again and told her that the girl had called me. I did admit that it was funny but had it been S doing it at 2am I'd have been PISSED!!! I didn't know how many other people these girls called at 2am or Godforbid, after that time (it did sound like they were having a great time). The phone showed up with her mom's name on it so I figured the girls must've gone inside and stole her moms cell phone but come to find out, she has her own. At 11 years old!? Are you kidding me!? Wow! How times have changed. Anyway, I was also telling my ex-worker that I had no idea who this girls mom was, where does she work? She was one of the kindergarten aides!!! Hahahaha!!!! That just made it *that* much more funny!!! I know EXACTLY who her mom is. She was in the classroom across the hall from S. I can't wait till I see her!
Had a good time this weekend. (Yes I do relize I'm all over the place and almost going backwards.) We left early Friday morning, stopped at the hotel. There were no rooms ready for us yet so we just got our butts in gear and headed to Six Flags. We had a great time!!! S loved every single minute of it! In fact she wanted to go back the next day but unfortunately she had to go to her dad's. I told her that maybe I'll take her when I pick her up in August but we'll have to see where my funding is at that point in time. Anyway, took her on some kiddie rides and then one of the smaller roller coasters where she sat in front of me between my legs. Dumbass me forgot that the coaster goes into a dark tunnel, she was so freaking scared!!! She was screaming and had tears streaming down her face when the ride was over. Oh you cannot imagine how bad I felt!!! Poor thing and mean ol' Mommy!!! After that we went to the water park and had a great time there. Went down a couple of water slides and all around on the kiddie thing-a-ma-bobber as well as the wave pool. It was a really good time. After that we went back to the park and walked around some more. We were in the Nick. part and S was waiting in line to go on some Flinstone ferris wheel type thing. There was a group of kids waiting to get on and next thing I know, S is holding hands w/ another little girl and they got on the ride together. It was so cute. The got off of that one and S askes if she can go on another ride, and away they went holding hands again. I had to take some pics. They were too cute not to. :)
I know I've been lacking in the pic dept. I'll get on that maybe later when I get home! :)
