Just Another Bend In Journey of Life
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Week in Review....Oh what a week! I didn't do jack last weekend. Stella and I took a ride to Houghton on Saturday and did some shopping and I think we just sat home on Sunday. Nothing spectacular at all. Monday was hell at work so I joked w/ B that I was calling in sick on Tues. Well Monday night as I'm sitting at the computer a box pops up on my screen asking if I'd accept a message from hot UPS guy?! WTF?! Well I'm just floored! I never gave him my AOL AIM name. NEVER. No one up here has it. I used it to keep in touch with the flight attendants and pilots that I used to fly with and I actually don't normally open it but since reconnecting with Neuman and Rob I have it on so we can all chat. Anyway, so here pops up this box. I almost had to rub my eyes because I thought that I was seeing things. Seriously! Obviously I accepted. He's like "How the heck are ya?" I'm still in awe and trying to figure out how he got the AIM name considering that I don't give it out to anyone. Not even my cousin/best friend has it! In fact I don't think anyone in MI has it! Anyway, we chatted and he would NOT tell me where he got it from.
(Talk about open mouth insert foot! He just signed on so I sent him a message saying "Hi sexy bitch! Happy Turkey Day!!!" and I get a message back that it's his brother and they're all over at his house for Thanksgiving! OOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Ok, so Mr UPS guy and I had talked on the phone a while back and he said that he was going to bring doughnuts down to the office for us. Well, a month or two has gone by and I hadn't seen him or the doughnuts so I got this wild idea that I was going to leave work early and head to the office and bring HIM doughnuts!!! Then I didn't know what kind so I grabbed a package of doughnut holes and a package of glazed doughnuts. I drove all the way there. I consulted with two of my friends the night before and decided that I should wear the jeans that make my butt look really good and a cream colored turtleneck sweater 'cause when I wear it to work I get comments from the guys on how big my boobs look. Perfect. Sexy and not skanky. I don't want to give him the impression that I'm easy or anything. :) Ok, so I get there and go to the door and it's locked. There's a time thing on the door that says they don't open till 430p or something like that. So I go to the other side of the building and knock and the door is locked. AUGH! DAMN IT!!!! So I walk back to the car and get on my cell to all the office and get the number from our shipping dept so I can call and see if he's in the bldg and just not hearing me. Then.... out of the corner of my eye.... he's walking towards my car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's asking what I'm doing and I told him that I brought him some doughnuts. :) He'd told me the night prior over AIM that I was devilish--but in a good way. :) So I gave him the glazed doughnuts and told him "See, I'm nice" and that the doughnuts were halo's. He thought that was funny. I sat outside (with no jacket on-- I was FREEZING!!!! Good thing I had a warm sweater on or I think he'd be getting a big time nip shot!!!) So anyway, we chatted outside for a long time and then the phone rang (thank God!) and he ran to get the phone and told me to come inside. We chatted in there. All in all I was there for a good hour and a half! I have no idea what we really talked about. Just stuff in general. I couldn't get any answers out of him what so ever. He had me believing when I'd left that when I upgraded my AIM that it must have pulled his address out of my Outlook Express and added him to my messenger. Ya, that must have been it. Till I was on my way home thinking about it. If you send someone a message that is NOT on your messenger list, you get that box that pops up asking if you'll accept. SO, that means that he was not on my list prior to that! I still can't get it out of him!!! AUGH! What's a girl to do!? I haven't heard from him since I was there. I am soooo hoping that he wakes up and smells the coffee. It came up in conversation that he knows my cousins husband so I asked him about hot UPS guy. He said that hes' really nice, not a "sniffer" and has these blue eyes which you can see from across the room. SO TRUE!!! I think that he's either been hurt really bad or there was someone in his life that didn't agree with his lifestyle/hobbies. He is in the guard (CV's?) and also work like a dog and runs marathons. He'd made a comment when we were chatting over AIM that the (majority) of women up here are uptight and don't like to have fun. And later said that it's hard for him to have any kind of relationship because he's gone 24 weeks out of the year. I reminded him that I used to be a flight attendant so I'm familiar with all of the traveling ad that I also really like my "alone time". I don't need to be with someone 24/7. Oh, I'm not sure if I posted it or not, but the friday before last, I'd emailed him because Stella was supposed to leave, and asked him if he'd be interested in doing anything while she was gone? Now, I knew that he was working UPS all weekend and then had to go to Ft McCoy to teach the following week. Well, I never heard back from him. FUCKER!!! I was sooo pissed. I would have actually rathered get a return email saying, "Thanks but you're ugly" or "Sorry, I like tall blondes" than nothing at all. I got an email from him the following Tuesday saying he was leaving for Ft McCoy and that he had to drive 600 miles etc. WTF?! He's not gone!? AND he totally blew off my invitation!? OH NO HE DIDN'T!!!!! I started emailing him back explaining that Stella didn't leave etc... Then I thought about it and erased everything I wrote and said "Have a safe drive". I figured he was expecting a long email back since that's normally what I give him but I was going to show him! :) Hahahaha!!! FUCKER. I explained all of that to him when I was there. Well, apparently Kenny had said something to him and he claims that he didn't get the email. Now, he probably didn't. I know that AOL has issues sometimes. But still, after Kenny said something he knew about it so what's the deal? He didn't say yea or nay. I hate men! My friends advice is to let him come to me now. I'm just wondering if he's too shy? I mean maybe he hasn't been on a date in a long time!? I don't know. I asked him, I wasn't expecting him to take me out. AUGH, I don't know what to do!!!
I went up there with the hopes that he'd see me in person and not get me out of his head and at least give me a fair shot. I wanted him to see that I'm not one of those uptight Yooper girls but that I in fact do like to have fun and I'm not your average girl. Maybe he walked away thinking I was crazy?! Maybe he's debating on what to do himself? Who knows?! I'm sure if he was in a bad relationship that he doesn't want to repeat that. Understandable. I just hate the unknown. I hate having to wait for someone to decide while I sit in limbo. I mean, even him telling me that he's flattered but I'm not his type would be nice. After all, I did remind him when I was up there that I wasn't asking him to get married. All I want is a chance to get to know him. I don't know what it is about him that I am so attracted to. I will admit one thing. He didn't quite look like I remembered him. Yes, he is good looking, but his features weren't quite as "sharp" as I remembered. I think I had him up to the "Prince Charming" level. Perfect, chisled etc... And he was thinner than I remembered. Not an ounce of fat on him. Granted that the brown uniform isn't the most flattering on most people. You can tell he's in the military, uniform tucked in just so, freshly shaved head. But you know, even though he wasn't what I remembered physically, I still think he's a wonderful person. Normally I wouldn't give a military guy, let alone a Marine, a chance in hell at my heart but he seems so much different. I don't even know why I have those feelings. Maybe it's because of the sperm donor thing, I don't know. They just always seem to have the "this is what you're going to do" or " you'll do what I tell you do to" attitude and I'm WAY too independant to deal with someone like that. He is so different. You know my favorite thing about him? No, not the amazing ocean blue eyes.... His laugh. He has the most infectious laugh. Not only that but for someone that I don't really know at all, I can have a conversation with him for so long and not run out of things to talk about. I feel like I have known him for years. It's true. When I think about hot UPS guy, the first thing that comes to my mind is his laugh. Ah, the power of a laugh. I can only hope that I get the opportunity to hear many more of them one day..... We shall see if dreams really do come true.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Favorite PicsI've decided to post some of my favorite pics on here although I was trying to add more for some reason, yet again, it won't let me. Oh well, guess it gives me something to do in a new post! :)
Old FriendsThe funniest thing. When I was working for the first airline, I ended up finding out that one of the pilots parents lived very near my hometown, which is just funny since I live pretty much in the middle of no where. Anyway, since I have been back and I ran into his father we've kept in touch. He called when he was here last and were catching up on the good ol Lakes crew and where they're all at now days. Well, last week or so I get an email from one of the guys that was an FO with us! How funny! That guy was hilarious! His name was Rob Saul but I always called him Rod Small. Anyway, we were chatting and he gave me Neuman's email. So I called Rob last night and then we called Neuman on 3 way. How much fun was that to talk to those guys after all those years!? I left Great Lakes (aka Great Mistakes) in March 1998. Those were some of the best days I've ever had!!! We've all been remiscing over the last couple of days. Neuman has a house about 5 hrs from here in MN so we're going to plan on meeting there in Feb sometime. I can't wait!!!!! Rob is still married to the chick that looks like the woman from the Weather Channel and has a 5 year old little girl. Neuman on the other hand, has divorced his wife. I always thought he was cute in a very goofy way. They were always so much fun. Hopefully they can put me in touch with other people from those days. The one I'd really like to talk to is Chris Luhman. I miss him. He and I had some good times. I'm trying to talk Julie into coming up and going to Neuman's with us. It'd be like a little GLA reunion! Whoo hooo!!! They said that Harry Gambino is flying for AirTran maybe? That doesn't really sound right. No clue where his ex girlfriend Lori is. She was so nice too. I wonder where Teneyke LaTourette is these days? If I remember right, he went to UAL... He and I always had joked that if we weren't married by the time we were 25 or 30 or something like that, that we'd get married to each other so we wouldn't be alone. How funny! No clue where he is. I think he was from CO.
In other news, Stella had fun shoveling last night after I picked her up from Gretchen's. I think she's really going to like winter this year. She's at a fun age and I can also just ship her outside and she can keep herself occupied. I really need to buy some boots and warm mittens this year so I can go out and build a snowman with her. I took her sled out already. God that was sooooo much fun when I was a kid. Too bad I'm too much of a wimp now! Why is that? Why do we become wimps when we get older? Why is it that the lake seemed so warm when we were kids but as we get older it seems to get colder? Does our skin get thinner? Who knows? I
guess it doesn't really matter does it?
The deer hunter outta be having a good time with the snow! There's a lot of people coming up this next week for Thanksgiving. It'll be nice to see some people that I haven't seen in forever and a day. I hope Hoopy said that he'll be up Tuesday I think. I guess there's a bunch of people going out on Wednesday night since everyone is off on Thursday. I may have to do that. Something different. And if should be fun with everyone in town for the holiday weekend. We have Friday off this year too!!! Whoo hooo! I don't think I've ever had the day after Turkey Day off. Who knows what I'll do? Christmas shopping sounds like a good idea but we'll see. Speaking of Turkey Day. I still have no idea what my plans are. With all of the snow I can't really drive my car out to camp, my apartment is too small to have everyone over for dinner. Kelley thought about doing it at her house but then I'm sure my parents will just come in and leave. Kelley can't just have dinner there and not invite Chris' family. My mom is selfish like that. Well, what is she going to do? Then again, she may not feel like doing much. She's having her eye surgery on Monday. Hopefully all goes well!!!
Ok, another chapter here. Time for me to close! Ta ta for now people!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
The Weather Outside Is Frightful.... Let It Snow Let It Snow Let It Snow!!!
This is what it looked like the next morning on my way to work. Believe it or not but school was cancelled. Away from the lake they got pounded!!! Very unusual for school to be cancelled this early in the year! Oh well, the kids got to enjoy the first snowfall at least!!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Let The Snow Begin!!!
Ah, the wonderful news of living in the North! I wake up to Bob the weatherman this morning, who first of all, isn't "all there" and is WAY too animated for his job. (Everything is GLORIOUS!) I'm not kidding, he is NOT the first thing you want to see when you wake up in the morning! (His poor wife!!!) Anyway, so I wake up to Mr. Enthusiastic this morning telling me the WONDERFUL news of all the snow we're going to get tonight. Yes folks, we're calling for out first big storm of the winter. A whopping 6-16 inches depending on where you live. Of course there will be more in the higher terrain. AUGH! I HATE WINTER!!!! Time to get out my hat and mittens and snowpants for Stella! Oh boy she'll be SO excited!!! I, on the other hand, despise winter so much I don't even own boots! I'll have to post pics later tonight after I get the shovel out! I bet the hunters will be happy. Opening day of hunting season, easier to track the bucks!
Monday, November 07, 2005
Decisions Decisons....Well, I get to work today and someone plugged something into the inverted power or something so everything was down for about an hour. Once everything came up I find an email from Dan in my inbox. Seems as the inevitable happened. The airline filed Ch 11. We knew it was going to happen but hoped it wouldn't. Now what to do? Granted they have 60 days to find a financial backer or they go belly up I guess. Who the hell knows?! All I can do is hope for the best but prepare for the worst. Should the airline go under or they drastically cut costs, that could mean that Dan will lose all of his flying privalidges. Then what? How does Stella see her dad and brother? Well after hearing the news right away this morning I had all freaking day to think about it. I called up to Friend of the Court due to the fact that the press release said that salaried employees will have an immediate 5% pay decrease across the board. I hate the thought of the two of them struggling even though I know I'm far from being well off, however I put myself in their shoes. At least I have other family here too.... Well, then comes the decision of what happens if Dan DOES lose his job??? What is that going to mean for Stella? I cannot keep her from her dad and brother. What kind of mother would that make me? So of course then I think, where could I move? If I moved closer to Detroit it'd only be like a 6-8 hour drive. 3-4 hours each way. That's doable. So.... is this a sign? I've always said that I had no intention on staying when I moved back here and here I am 4 years later. Why? Why am I here? What is keeping me here? My parents moved out to camp 2 months ago and unless I go to camp, I see my dad when he's working and I think my mom has been here maybe twice since they've moved and probably only because she felt that she had to. I have my sister and Ava. I love little Ava to death and I hate to think about her growing up without me around but I can't stay here just for her either. Kelley I see on occasion. Usually if Stella and I go to the Gig on Thursdays. Otherwise it's a very rare occasion. Gretchen. I will always have her. I feel that she's the big sister I never had. While I'd have to say that she's my closest friend, I also feel that she and I have grown apart over the years. Granted that we still have fun when we're together but she has a family and Todd's friends. I feel very out of place around them. I don't know why, just do I guess. So why am I here? It doesn't seem to be for family. I have no boyfriend. Not even anyone that's interested in me. I love my job and it has taken me a long time to find a place that feels like family. I love the people that I work with and they treat me great. Could I find that again somewhere else? The other thing is that if I did move near the city, Stella would have SO much opportunity. She could be in the dance classes that she so longs to take. She could see that there is so much more to life than what there is here. On the other hand, growing up in a small town isn't so bad. There's hardly any violence, everyone knows everyone. I'm just so torn. So undecided as to what to do. I know that no one can tell me what I should do, it's something that I have to decide on my own. I also know that 60 days is a long way away and I shouldn't fret right now. I just hate the unknown. I hate not having a back up plan if I need one.
I think today was the first day I've cried in a very long time. I need some guidance or a sign so I know I'm going to do the right thing.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
More Halloween PicsSince I can't figure out how to add them into a previous post, even though I did one after the fact, here are some more pics of us on Halloween. Yes, that is a penis!
Halloween fun!!!Well, I can't believe that it's been over a month since I've been on here! I have no idea where I've been because I certainly haven't been any busier than normal! Still have my eye on the hot UPS man, although I'm not sure if I've mentioned him before or not. He's just gorgeous! Tall, tan, thin, muscular (he's a marathon runner!), and these amazingly striking eyes. I cannot even begin to explain then. I've only met him once but I doubt I'll ever forget! I'm trying to work my magic but I'm not sure it's working too well. I've chatted w/ him via phone and email a couple of times and I did make it very clear that I'm interested. Unless he's dumb, :) he should have gotten that out of the emails and phone calls. I did flat out ask him in an email if he had a gf but the question was avoided. I brought it up during a conversation I had with him and he just kind of chuckled and said that he can't tell me everything about his life in an email or I'd be bored. WTF?! Ok, that doesn't answer anything. So I've come to the conclusion that A) He's interested in someone and is waiting to see where it goes, B) He's busy concentrating on training for the upcoming marathons that he's competing in in DC and NY or C) He's just content with where his life is at this point and doesn't want a gf or whatever. I don't know. I guess time will tell. The DC marathon was last weekend and the NY one this weekend. I'm not sure if he has any after that or not. I'm trying to leave the ball in his court but I'm so weak!!!!!!!!!
On to Halloween!!! I went down to MQT with some girlfriends of mine. Well, they actually live there but I wanted to get out of town and do something different in the hopes of actually meeting someone. After many nights of Becky and I chatting over MSN and surfing the web looking for costumes we came up with the Alice in Wonderland theme. I'd be the Queen of Hearts and she'd be the Mad Hatter. Sexy little costumes we found! Well, at the time that Becky ordered hers we didn't realize what a complete bitch it'd be to find mine! AUGH! Oh well, we eventually found it. Well, then we decided we needed and Alice, so after a little coaxing we talked Lori into coming w/ us. We were sexy bitches!
