Just Another Bend In Journey of Life
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
FIRSTS
[First love]
Mike F. I thought he was the best thing on Earth. Although I know that it was more lust than anything. My first love was Dony without a doubt.
[First kiss and when]
Bryan L. I was in 8th grade at a dance in a neighboring town. He stuck his tongue in my mouth and I found it terribly disgusting!!!
[First prom date]
Steve N. His dad was a High School science teacher. I was a freshman and he was a junior. I thought I was so cool. We had a good time.
[First roommate]
I lived with my cousin Gretchen for a while and then moved out because I moved about 4 hours away with 2 other friends. Shannon A and then Shannon C moved down shortly after.
[First alcoholic beverage]
Hmmm... I know we raided Shannon A's parents liquor cabinet when we were young, probably Vodka becuase it didn't smell. After that strictly wine coolers. I thought everything else was gross. Now I can't drink wine coolers because they give me heart burn.
[First sexual partner]
Mike F. I thought he was a God! It didn't last too long. A couple of months maybe.
[First job]
A car hop at the Drive In. I think I was 12 or 13 but felt that I needed some of my own money!
[First car]
A 90 or 91 white 2 door Cavalier. I loved that car. I rolled it 3 months later. Boy was my dad pissed!!! I was driving on some dirt roads in the middle of the woods and while going around a corner I hit the brakes, they locked up and I slid down one side and then skidded to the other until the car started to spin and the back end hit a bank and rolled to it's top. Never in my life have I been so scared! Thank God I had my seat belt on so I'd have been majorly hurt since the roof of my car (when rolled back over) was level w/ my eyes!
[First funeral]
I think it was a great Aunt of mine that my Gma took me to. I was very young. Either that or my Great Grandpa Wally.
[First grade teacher]
Mrs Foucault. It was the only grade I didn't attend school in L'Anse. My dad got hired with the police dept there, but only for a year. Funny thing is that a guy that I graduated with is now engaged to her daughter and she (the teacher) was telling his parents about a little girl w/ dark hair that was in her class that was from L'Anse and then moved back there. Gee, put two and two together! How cool that with all the kids teachers go through in all the years they teach and she remembered me!!!
[First ride on an airplane]
Before my first birthday.
[First date]
My first "real" date was Brad S. He was a few years older than me and one of the most popular guys in school. Total jock. We went to dinner and a movie and then back to his house where he played a song on his guitar for me. Too bad all he did was talk about his ex girlfriend Sara the whole date!!!
[First time you snuck out of your house]
I never snuck out of my OWN house but I'd stay at Shannon A's and we'd sneek out of there! It was too easy and we never got caught!!!
[First Best Friend and are you still friends with them]
Either Shannon A or Angie, although I am closer to Angie even though she lives hours away.
[First person you call when you have a bad day]
Depends on what’s bad about the day and the severity of the badness. Sometimes Gretchen, or Jessica or my sister.
[First wedding you were a part of]
My parents. I was 3. My sperm donor was dead and my mom re-married the only man I've ever called Dad.
[First thing you do in the morning]
Say "fuck" and hit the snooze button.
I AM confused right now
I WANT to be happy
I WISH I was on my way to a tropical island
I MISS my friend Jason
I HEAR the clicking of keys on my keyboard and Sirius radio
I WONDER what I'll do after work today
I REGRET (at times) moving so far away from S's dad because I'm going to miss her like hell this summer
I AM NOT looking forward to sitting in front of this pc all day when it's nice out!
I DANCE all the time! I love to dance!
I AM NOT ALWAYS very emotionally stable
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS last nights dinner
I WRITE because I can better express myself that way.
I CONFUSE anyone and everyone most of the time
I NEED to know where I fit in certain people's lives in order to not waste time
I SHOULD not be such a bitch sometimes
I START things that I should finish but I typically get bored or sidetracked
I FINISH the arguements (and I almost always win)
One Word
YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD ANSWERS; NO EXPLANATIONS.
1. Yourself? complicated
2. Your Lover: unprioritized (is that a word?)
3. Your Hair: long
4. Your Mother: love
5. Your Father: giving
6. Your Favorite Item: sweater
7. Your Dream Last Night: death
8. Your Favorite Drink: budlight
9. Your Dream Home: never
10. The Room You Are In: office
11. Your Pet(s): naked
12. Who You Are Now: confident
13. Who You Want to be in Ten years: happy
14. What You Want to be in Twenty Years: comfortable
15. What You're Not: rich
16. Your Best Friend: there
17. One of Your Wishlist Items: love
18. Your Gender: female
19. The Last Thing You Did: type
20. What You Are Wearing? clothes
21. Your Favorite Weather: sunny
22. Your Favorite Book: hesjustnotthatintoyou
23. Your Life: crazy
24. Your Mood: blah
PART ONE: You and your life
1. Were any other names considered for you at birth? I think my mom said it was between Sarah and Stephanie. OMG! Can you see me as a Stephie?!
2. So how old will you be this year? 29, for real!
3. What is your astrological sign? Cancer (isn't that obvious?!)
4. Do you check your horoscopes regularly, and do you believe in them? I don't check them on a regular basis and I don't really believe in them but I do find it amusing how they somewhat seem to pertain to something going on in your life. Who ever writes them must be one smart cookie!
5. What are your typical [starsign] qualities? Moody, crabby, loving, caring
**No clue where #6 went!!!
7. Who are you compatible with? Well my horoscope jobby thing tells me Scorpio's but I find that I am so NOT compatible with a single one of them!
8. What kind of house do you live in? A single story, 2 bedroom, 1 bath house w/ an outdoor hot tub and sauna on 2 lots.
9. Who do you live with? My precious little girl and my 2 naked cats
10. How is your bedroom decorated? It's not. It's the one room in the house I have no idea what to do with. Right now the walls are white but the previous owner had torn out the big closet or whatever it was and put up tongue and groove around the walls and ceiling and then there's a big California-type closet w/ huge sliding mirrored doors.
11. Do you have posters on the walls? Uh no
12. Are your parents still together? Yes
13. So what kind of person are you, in the good ways? I'm loving, dependant (sometimes a bit too much) and thoughtful. I'd do just about anything for anyone. I like to help people in need. I strive to be a better parent than my mother was. Not that she was bad but she never took us anywhere or did anything with us.
14. And in the bad ways? I can be a bit obsessive, bitchy, moody,catty, indecisive, and I know I talk WAY too much
15. In what ways do you annoy people? I tend to talk too much, that I am aware of for sure. When I'm pissed off I tend to rant and rave until I feel better.
16. What are your strengths? I can be very supportive, caring, good listener,
17. What are your weaknesses? I don't do stress very well- I tend to freak out at times and get emotional, I get defensive easily.
18. Are you easily depressed? Depends on the situation. I've only been clinically depressed once in my life. I tend to get more stressed out than anything. And when I'm stressed out I don't talk.
19. What makes you depressed? Breaking up, missing my daughter when she's gone. Friends that have passed...
20. Are you easily paranoid? Depends on the situation
21. What is your current mood? Confusion
22. Who are your close friends? Angie, Gretchen, Becky, my sister at times
23. Who are your favorite friends to talk with when you are upset? Angie. She tends not to judge
PART TWO: APPEARANCES
1. Insert a picture of yourself here: I can't right now. Although if you scroll through, especially when I started this blog you'll find some.
2. How important is the way you look to you? I'm pretty low maintence but I do like to look nice. However, I don't have to apply lipstick everytime I pass a mirror or make sure my hair is in place.
3. How self-conscious are you when it comes to your appearance? Not really, unless I'm in a room full of tall, blonde, silicone stuffed women. Or in a bathing suit. I hate that. Nto because I think I'm fat but because I have SO many stretch marks, or what I like to call "battle wounds".
4. How tall/short are you? 5'1 1/2. What? The 1/2" makes a HUGE difference!!!
5. What color hair do you have? Dark brown
6. How long is it? Pretty long. Middle of my back. It used to be longer-- down to my butt when I was preg and after I had her but her sperm donor liked it so much and told me never to cut it so I chopped it up to my shoulders. I go in spurts and get bored w/ it so I cut it. Ever so spiteful!
7. What would you call your body shape? Thin, which I chaulk up to good metabolism, although I do admit I should be in better shape than I am.
8. Are you happy with it? Depends on the day. I'd certainly like to be more toned, just too lazy to do it.
9. How do you dress, and why? However I want really. Depends on where I'm going. In the winter I'm covered head to toe 'cause I hate cold. Summer when I'm lounging around, probably jean shorts and a tank top, work in the summer--skirts, dresses, anythign that is comfortable. I hate socks so I'm normally shoeless!
10. How long ago did you start dressing this way? After the grunge era I decided that I didn't care anymore and started wearing things that didn't make me look like a cow or were too big and baggy for my body size.
11. Do your friends dress similarly to you? Sometimes but I'm the one that will always pick out something wild to wear, 'cause I can get away with it and nothing I do fazes them!!!
12. How is the way you dress reflective of your personality? Depends on what I'm feeling/thinking at the time. Sometimes I liek to be sexy, sometimes flirty, out there and wild, sweet....
13. What parts of your appearance do people compliment? I'd have to say my eyes
14. What parts of your appearance do people insult? My hands and arms. I hate them!
