Just Another Bend In Journey of Life
Monday, April 24, 2006
On a rollMan, I just realized that I've actually posted like 4 or 5 times in a week. Something must be wrong with me. :)
The living room and half of S's room are done!!! YEAH!!! Actually I still have spots in both rooms that have to be touched up but I actually hung up my pictures in the living room just to see what it would look like and because I'm sick of living around boxes. So far it looks pretty good. Last year (I think), I'd painted S's hands and feet with bright pink paint and had her put them on canvas. They actually turned out really cute. Of course I had ideas but did nothing with them. Well I found them in the picture box while going through them on Saturday and decided to high tail my little butt to the dollar store to get some cheap frames. Of course they didn't have white so I opted for the oak ones and painted them white when I got home. I had some heavy duty canvas double mats at home that I'd planned on framing them with but they were too plain so I painted the smaller inside mat the same color pink as the hands and feet and then painted the bigger part a light green. Went to put them in the frames and they didn't freaking fit!!!! AUGH! Well, I managed somehow to squeeze them in so they looked ok, taped the bottom of them so they wouldn't fall out and then attempted to hang them on the wall and guess what? Yep, forgot that the mat wasn't in there all the way so I hot glued some hot pink ribbon and hung them up on a nail. Did they turn out cute!!! Better than I'd even expected! I'm soooo happy! I'd bought and painted some wooden letters that spelled out her name a while back and instead of sticking them on the wall I attached some pink ribbon to them too and hung them up. I'm just so pleased with the way it all turned out!!! Now I just have to figure out what to put on the other wall above her bunk bed because it just looks too bare. I think I may put up one of those wall words/quotes things. I just have to find the right one for her. I think it'll be cute and if I don't like it I can just paint over it. The ceiling fan, which I'd decided to turn into a flower needs major work. The "petals" turned out ok but I really dont' like the way my sister tried painting the leaves on the ceiling so I have to fix them. Hopefully I can get it to turn out right. Hopefully I plan on keeping this house for a while!!! :) My next thing is to find some window treatments for the windows. The living room still has green blinds and burgandy valances--ya those match the walls real nice!!! I figured I'd leave them up until I figured out what I was going to do with the walls. Her room on the other hand, has white blinds, which is nice but I have to find a valance or something so they're not so bare. Ok, enough of the house babble...
We went out Friday night. My old neighbors, the newlyweds, and the new boy toy. We went to dinner at the restaurant at the Casino and then ended up getting sucked into the casino. Man, I HATE that place!!! I haven't been in there in years but it only took me less than 20 min to give them $50. Assholes!!! The boy toy's sister on the other hand was in there and the little bitch was winning up a storm. I think she walked out $280 ahead. I hate lucky people! From there we went to another bar and I got a little out of hand and ended up dancing on the chair and then that just wasn't good enough so I had to move to the table! Good thing I'm short and didn't hit my head! Hey, at least I felt good on Sat. BT wasn't real happy with me but you know, I'm not going to change my ways just because he doesn't like it. I mean, he knew where I was going to right? I didn't lay my hands on anyone, there was no bumping and grinding action with any guy on the dance floor. Although there was a smelter in there that had hip waders on so I stole them from him and danced around with them on for a while. I'm sure that was a pretty sight!!! :) My point is that I didn't do anything wrong and I'm very comfortable with who I am, who he is etc... I know he's not going to take off on me with someone else and if he does-- his loss. I don't play that game. I believe in trust and if two people can't trust each other then what is the point? He did apoligize up and down the next day for being such an asshole, which was good. I just explained to him that we came from two very different relationships and are not used to each other's ways. He came from being with someone that basically stalked him where ever he went. He wasn't allowed out of her sight and she'd call him non-stop. In fact, they've been broken up for about 2 years now and she still calls non-stop and when she's in town, she'll break into his house (now that someone showed her how to do it) and crawl into his bed. She is a nut job. Seriously. She called Sat night around 2am wanting to talk to him on her way home from the bar and telling him to call her sometime when he's alone. He gave me the password to his phone and let me listen to it before he even did. I trust the guy. I know where his head it and where he wants to be and don't feel the least bit threatened. On the flip side--- I know what its like to be in love with someone and not being able to let go and move on so I do feel for her. I look at how long it took me to get over D and it was tough. Some days I wonder if I am totally 100% over him. I guess I look at it as something I HAVE to do. I have to move on because I know, and have known for probably the last year and a half that we were together that it was never going to be. It was never going to work. It's just hard to let go of something that you're so used to. BT and the ex were together for 5 years, high school sweethearts. I can sympathize with her and how she feels but she has to get over it at some point. I wish her the best and hope someone comes up and sweeps her off her feet someday and she rids herself of her jealous ways. If she doesn't she'll be doomed because I can't think of one man I know that likes to have to "report" his where-abouts or if he's taking a shit or not every 5 minutes. People need space!!!
