Just Another Bend In Journey of Life
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Week in Review....Oh what a week! I didn't do jack last weekend. Stella and I took a ride to Houghton on Saturday and did some shopping and I think we just sat home on Sunday. Nothing spectacular at all. Monday was hell at work so I joked w/ B that I was calling in sick on Tues. Well Monday night as I'm sitting at the computer a box pops up on my screen asking if I'd accept a message from hot UPS guy?! WTF?! Well I'm just floored! I never gave him my AOL AIM name. NEVER. No one up here has it. I used it to keep in touch with the flight attendants and pilots that I used to fly with and I actually don't normally open it but since reconnecting with Neuman and Rob I have it on so we can all chat. Anyway, so here pops up this box. I almost had to rub my eyes because I thought that I was seeing things. Seriously! Obviously I accepted. He's like "How the heck are ya?" I'm still in awe and trying to figure out how he got the AIM name considering that I don't give it out to anyone. Not even my cousin/best friend has it! In fact I don't think anyone in MI has it! Anyway, we chatted and he would NOT tell me where he got it from.
(Talk about open mouth insert foot! He just signed on so I sent him a message saying "Hi sexy bitch! Happy Turkey Day!!!" and I get a message back that it's his brother and they're all over at his house for Thanksgiving! OOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Ok, so Mr UPS guy and I had talked on the phone a while back and he said that he was going to bring doughnuts down to the office for us. Well, a month or two has gone by and I hadn't seen him or the doughnuts so I got this wild idea that I was going to leave work early and head to the office and bring HIM doughnuts!!! Then I didn't know what kind so I grabbed a package of doughnut holes and a package of glazed doughnuts. I drove all the way there. I consulted with two of my friends the night before and decided that I should wear the jeans that make my butt look really good and a cream colored turtleneck sweater 'cause when I wear it to work I get comments from the guys on how big my boobs look. Perfect. Sexy and not skanky. I don't want to give him the impression that I'm easy or anything. :) Ok, so I get there and go to the door and it's locked. There's a time thing on the door that says they don't open till 430p or something like that. So I go to the other side of the building and knock and the door is locked. AUGH! DAMN IT!!!! So I walk back to the car and get on my cell to all the office and get the number from our shipping dept so I can call and see if he's in the bldg and just not hearing me. Then.... out of the corner of my eye.... he's walking towards my car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He's asking what I'm doing and I told him that I brought him some doughnuts. :) He'd told me the night prior over AIM that I was devilish--but in a good way. :) So I gave him the glazed doughnuts and told him "See, I'm nice" and that the doughnuts were halo's. He thought that was funny. I sat outside (with no jacket on-- I was FREEZING!!!! Good thing I had a warm sweater on or I think he'd be getting a big time nip shot!!!) So anyway, we chatted outside for a long time and then the phone rang (thank God!) and he ran to get the phone and told me to come inside. We chatted in there. All in all I was there for a good hour and a half! I have no idea what we really talked about. Just stuff in general. I couldn't get any answers out of him what so ever. He had me believing when I'd left that when I upgraded my AIM that it must have pulled his address out of my Outlook Express and added him to my messenger. Ya, that must have been it. Till I was on my way home thinking about it. If you send someone a message that is NOT on your messenger list, you get that box that pops up asking if you'll accept. SO, that means that he was not on my list prior to that! I still can't get it out of him!!! AUGH! What's a girl to do!? I haven't heard from him since I was there. I am soooo hoping that he wakes up and smells the coffee. It came up in conversation that he knows my cousins husband so I asked him about hot UPS guy. He said that hes' really nice, not a "sniffer" and has these blue eyes which you can see from across the room. SO TRUE!!! I think that he's either been hurt really bad or there was someone in his life that didn't agree with his lifestyle/hobbies. He is in the guard (CV's?) and also work like a dog and runs marathons. He'd made a comment when we were chatting over AIM that the (majority) of women up here are uptight and don't like to have fun. And later said that it's hard for him to have any kind of relationship because he's gone 24 weeks out of the year. I reminded him that I used to be a flight attendant so I'm familiar with all of the traveling ad that I also really like my "alone time". I don't need to be with someone 24/7. Oh, I'm not sure if I posted it or not, but the friday before last, I'd emailed him because Stella was supposed to leave, and asked him if he'd be interested in doing anything while she was gone? Now, I knew that he was working UPS all weekend and then had to go to Ft McCoy to teach the following week. Well, I never heard back from him. FUCKER!!! I was sooo pissed. I would have actually rathered get a return email saying, "Thanks but you're ugly" or "Sorry, I like tall blondes" than nothing at all. I got an email from him the following Tuesday saying he was leaving for Ft McCoy and that he had to drive 600 miles etc. WTF?! He's not gone!? AND he totally blew off my invitation!? OH NO HE DIDN'T!!!!! I started emailing him back explaining that Stella didn't leave etc... Then I thought about it and erased everything I wrote and said "Have a safe drive". I figured he was expecting a long email back since that's normally what I give him but I was going to show him! :) Hahahaha!!! FUCKER. I explained all of that to him when I was there. Well, apparently Kenny had said something to him and he claims that he didn't get the email. Now, he probably didn't. I know that AOL has issues sometimes. But still, after Kenny said something he knew about it so what's the deal? He didn't say yea or nay. I hate men! My friends advice is to let him come to me now. I'm just wondering if he's too shy? I mean maybe he hasn't been on a date in a long time!? I don't know. I asked him, I wasn't expecting him to take me out. AUGH, I don't know what to do!!!
I went up there with the hopes that he'd see me in person and not get me out of his head and at least give me a fair shot. I wanted him to see that I'm not one of those uptight Yooper girls but that I in fact do like to have fun and I'm not your average girl. Maybe he walked away thinking I was crazy?! Maybe he's debating on what to do himself? Who knows?! I'm sure if he was in a bad relationship that he doesn't want to repeat that. Understandable. I just hate the unknown. I hate having to wait for someone to decide while I sit in limbo. I mean, even him telling me that he's flattered but I'm not his type would be nice. After all, I did remind him when I was up there that I wasn't asking him to get married. All I want is a chance to get to know him. I don't know what it is about him that I am so attracted to. I will admit one thing. He didn't quite look like I remembered him. Yes, he is good looking, but his features weren't quite as "sharp" as I remembered. I think I had him up to the "Prince Charming" level. Perfect, chisled etc... And he was thinner than I remembered. Not an ounce of fat on him. Granted that the brown uniform isn't the most flattering on most people. You can tell he's in the military, uniform tucked in just so, freshly shaved head. But you know, even though he wasn't what I remembered physically, I still think he's a wonderful person. Normally I wouldn't give a military guy, let alone a Marine, a chance in hell at my heart but he seems so much different. I don't even know why I have those feelings. Maybe it's because of the sperm donor thing, I don't know. They just always seem to have the "this is what you're going to do" or " you'll do what I tell you do to" attitude and I'm WAY too independant to deal with someone like that. He is so different. You know my favorite thing about him? No, not the amazing ocean blue eyes.... His laugh. He has the most infectious laugh. Not only that but for someone that I don't really know at all, I can have a conversation with him for so long and not run out of things to talk about. I feel like I have known him for years. It's true. When I think about hot UPS guy, the first thing that comes to my mind is his laugh. Ah, the power of a laugh. I can only hope that I get the opportunity to hear many more of them one day..... We shall see if dreams really do come true.
